tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-36226202024-02-28T03:05:43.148-08:00Leaving it BehindAwkward musings on coming into adulthood.Krystlehttp://www.blogger.com/profile/02440469851695986926noreply@blogger.comBlogger474125tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-3622620.post-52035142596659406292011-09-11T22:05:00.000-07:002011-09-11T22:08:26.112-07:00ElevenApproximately 10 years ago I wrote this song, as a meditation on 9/11/01ElevenEntire world turned upside down todayThoughts and fears, freedoms and fearsWill it ever be the same?How could I forget you never went awayAnd that it's by your grace I even live todayAnd I'll keep waiting for you to comeAnd I'll keep waiting for you to comeFor you to comeI'm living in a dying worldMan next door, what's Krystlehttp://www.blogger.com/profile/02440469851695986926noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-3622620.post-62962305572241259502010-12-15T09:28:00.000-08:002010-12-15T09:44:19.346-08:00DecemberI just had my last concert yesterday at school which means that I am teaching free for the next three weeks. It's a good feeling, though I suppose it would feel a lot more liberating if the week before Christmas wasn't always my busiest week at my church job. But today I've got a day off and I'm grateful. I'm trying to take some time this morning to chill, but in a more purposeful way than doing Krystlehttp://www.blogger.com/profile/02440469851695986926noreply@blogger.com1tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-3622620.post-89316850871998694312010-06-02T20:57:00.000-07:002010-06-02T21:07:56.479-07:00chosenThis is something I haven't really processed yet, but I thought I would get it down anyway. Lately (as in the past couple weeks) I've been in one of those "It's so weird that I'm married" modes. It's not that I'm anxious or freaking out during those times, nor am I extra sentimental or happy. I just have these times where I look back on the last few months and go, "Wow, we really did that? That'sKrystlehttp://www.blogger.com/profile/02440469851695986926noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-3622620.post-60924738163853623732010-04-22T19:11:00.000-07:002010-04-22T19:13:20.459-07:00still employedI found out yesterday that my teaching job is for sure safe for next year, regardless of what happens with further fundraising for our arts program. Amazing. Well, for me. It was stinkin weird (and awful) to get a letter from our superintendent that had bad news for basically everyone in the entire school except for me. I was literally the only job mentioned that's not getting cut back in some Krystlehttp://www.blogger.com/profile/02440469851695986926noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-3622620.post-58669892894246056902010-04-16T21:08:00.001-07:002010-04-16T21:23:17.924-07:00changeSo, things have kind of changed in the past few months. Namely, I'm married now. It was funny to log into this account and realize I needed to put my old email address with my maiden name. I have a maiden name! I was telling my grandma yesterday that I'm an old maid now, which I realize is a strange thing to tell an 86-year-old, but still, the fact remains that I'm no longer a single lady who is Krystlehttp://www.blogger.com/profile/02440469851695986926noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-3622620.post-5838007878004211642010-01-18T10:31:00.000-08:002010-01-18T10:43:44.938-08:008 daysWhy does it always come back to a Sara Groves album? Seriously, the woman has a gift.I'm sitting here listening to an older album "The Other Side of Something." The song "Compelled" is getting me at the moment, harkening me back to a different season in my life. It's tugging at something deeper in me, reminding me that something is going on right now - something must be going on, or I fear I Krystlehttp://www.blogger.com/profile/02440469851695986926noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-3622620.post-76077962184285391882010-01-11T19:23:00.001-08:002010-01-11T19:39:48.307-08:00lossThis is an impromptu sort of thing so I don't know how well it's going to work out. I realized it's been almost seven and half years since I experienced this. I'd say that's a pretty good stretch of time to go without a loss, right? Not that there's ever a good time to lose someone near and dear to you.I spent about five hours yesterday at the hospital. Most of it was spent in the third level Krystlehttp://www.blogger.com/profile/02440469851695986926noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-3622620.post-86242865733385913552009-12-02T15:05:00.001-08:002009-12-02T15:06:35.909-08:00Christmas faux pasI'm just going to say it:I've never been a fan of the song The First Noel. I mean, if it wasn't for the foreign language aspect, this song would never have made it. The chorus is all one word!Krystlehttp://www.blogger.com/profile/02440469851695986926noreply@blogger.com1tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-3622620.post-41311802254649408962009-11-01T08:47:00.000-08:002009-11-01T09:04:35.256-08:00coming homeI'd have to say that October was a pretty good month for me. On October 10th the love of my life proposed, I said yes, and it's pretty much been a whirlwind since then. My birthday was this weekend and I had a great time relaxing and hanging out with friends. I've had a great 25th year, but I'm thinking that 26 will be the best year yet.I've been slowly realizing that I've hardly given myself Krystlehttp://www.blogger.com/profile/02440469851695986926noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-3622620.post-50133492711312160942009-10-06T16:27:00.000-07:002009-10-06T16:29:13.707-07:00delightMy favorite teaching moment from today:A fifth grade girl literally gasps with delight when I tell them that they can go to the local symphony for free if they pick up a special card in the office. I love my little overachieving children. Krystlehttp://www.blogger.com/profile/02440469851695986926noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-3622620.post-37654669607987797912009-08-19T19:37:00.000-07:002009-08-19T19:47:37.871-07:00justice and compassionI know it's been forever since I've written. Prepared to be shocked about my topic. For whatever reason this article has me up in arms. (Okay, not really up in arms, but a little bit peeved at our Secretary of State.)http://www.msnbc.msn.com/id/32479346/ns/world_news-terrorism/?GT1=43001This article talks about Abdel Baset, who was convicted in 2001 of the 1988 bombing of Pan Am flight 103. ThereKrystlehttp://www.blogger.com/profile/02440469851695986926noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-3622620.post-20281332692928302602009-06-30T23:19:00.000-07:002009-06-30T23:20:24.260-07:00#2349872Today is lesson number 2349872 in unselfishness. Seriously, there were great parts of today. I need to just let this go.Krystlehttp://www.blogger.com/profile/02440469851695986926noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-3622620.post-72584038547667524462009-06-28T21:41:00.000-07:002009-06-28T21:52:15.019-07:00the horse and the cartThere is this guy that sometimes speaks at the career group I go to. He's unlike any person I've met before. I feel like whenever I hear him speak he basically says the same thing, though he changes some of the stories and minor points. He admitted to us all that he's like that. He's got one topic that he does over and over: the gospel. But, he said, the gospel happens to be a very large Krystlehttp://www.blogger.com/profile/02440469851695986926noreply@blogger.com1tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-3622620.post-62947635825709124572009-06-14T16:17:00.000-07:002009-06-14T16:40:20.301-07:00impossible requestsThis is attempt number three at a post. I am seriously a ridiculous perfectionist.I'm going to a conference this week about music integration in the classroom. They've asked us to bring a two minute clip of a piece of music that represents us. Do they understand what a ridiculous request that is? Sure, let me just look through my 7.2 day long list of songs on itunes and I'll cue one right up for Krystlehttp://www.blogger.com/profile/02440469851695986926noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-3622620.post-28544977044268418612009-04-22T22:06:00.000-07:002009-04-22T22:08:28.834-07:00j/kSoooo, just kidding on that whole Romania thing. I was going...and now I'm not. The trip got canceled because the main leader had a heart attack. He's totally fine, but not going for obvious reasons. So I guess we can just chalk this one up as a test in obedience for me. I'm glad I was able to do what I felt called to.And now I can go to Hawaii, so I'm not feeling uber upset about it.Krystlehttp://www.blogger.com/profile/02440469851695986926noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-3622620.post-46835067904853757112009-04-18T17:20:00.001-07:002009-04-18T17:20:49.754-07:00jumping inLooks like I'm going to Romania this summer.If this doesn't get inquisitive comments, I'm not sure what will.Krystlehttp://www.blogger.com/profile/02440469851695986926noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-3622620.post-17752909263353249772009-03-27T21:52:00.000-07:002009-03-27T21:58:37.822-07:00Questo muroA poem inspired by Dante's divine comedy, by Anita Barrows.You will come at a turning of the trailto a wall of flameAfter the hard climb and & the exhausted dreamingyou will come to a place where hewith whom you have walked this farwill stop, will standbeside you on the treacherous steep path& stare as you shiver at the moving wall, the flamethat blocks your vision of whatcomes after. AndKrystlehttp://www.blogger.com/profile/02440469851695986926noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-3622620.post-54100940655296679712009-03-11T15:47:00.001-07:002009-03-11T15:48:23.960-07:00sticking it to the manToday I filled my tank at $1.99 a gallon. Booyah!In other news, I would like to announce on this cyber forum that I am most definitely in love.How's that for juxtaposition?Krystlehttp://www.blogger.com/profile/02440469851695986926noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-3622620.post-12518196833710389192009-02-20T16:19:00.000-08:002009-02-20T16:26:46.885-08:00so much I don't understandMy mind is seriously being blown right now.For Women Only, Shaunti Feldhahn Krystlehttp://www.blogger.com/profile/02440469851695986926noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-3622620.post-5945294670385456582009-02-16T08:58:00.001-08:002009-02-16T09:34:32.932-08:0025 randomsSo there's this thing circulating around facebook where people write 25 random things about themselves. I have avoided this trend for quite some time. Actually, it took quite a while for me to get tagged, but anyway, I really hate the idea of tagging people back so I just thought I would do it on here instead. I realize that's a little strange, but there's something in me that feels a little too Krystlehttp://www.blogger.com/profile/02440469851695986926noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-3622620.post-42165757504734179792009-01-22T22:30:00.000-08:002009-01-22T22:33:10.585-08:00commitmentFrom my paper journal (for accountability's sake)I need to pray...a lot. I do not want this one to pass me by. I am resolving right now to end the cycle of passivity. I am not just going to forget about this one. Now, the end result (action) might end up looking the same as if I had just let it go, but my process to get there will not be the same. I'm going to take last year's lesson - engage - Krystlehttp://www.blogger.com/profile/02440469851695986926noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-3622620.post-85862129077487703922009-01-20T23:37:00.000-08:002009-01-20T23:42:31.520-08:00disfunctionalAnd you've done it again - managed to bring emotional turmoil to all those near to you and then pretend like nothing ever happened. Why would we need to talk about things when we can just forget about them instead? That would be fine if forgetting also involved an erasure of all the mental and emotional strain I (and others) have experienced because of your actions. I'm sorry we aren't all okay Krystlehttp://www.blogger.com/profile/02440469851695986926noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-3622620.post-8821055037395528722009-01-19T13:10:00.000-08:002009-01-19T13:13:27.128-08:00turmoilThis past week feels like it's been a month. Some really strange things have happened. Things I don't have the energy to explain, because when I do it saps me a little bit more. Stuff I can do absolutely nothing about except to pray and ask God where I fit in. I trust that he'll be faithful to answer. But I don't want to stop asking...that's my biggest fear.Krystlehttp://www.blogger.com/profile/02440469851695986926noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-3622620.post-53674214616218903942009-01-10T17:05:00.000-08:002009-01-10T17:19:41.742-08:00changing in incrementsTruth be told I'm between activities and don't necessarily even have a subject for this blog, but I thought I would type and see where my mind (and my fingers) take me.A friend told me the other night that I've loosened up a lot in the last few months, namely since I started dating my boyfriend. It's true I think. We do more social things together, in spite of the fact that we're both introverts.Krystlehttp://www.blogger.com/profile/02440469851695986926noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-3622620.post-9946153805066499532009-01-01T15:52:00.000-08:002009-01-01T15:53:00.637-08:00lateOops. I think I missed the deadline for deep, introspective post about 2008.Krystlehttp://www.blogger.com/profile/02440469851695986926noreply@blogger.com0